State of the Union

It's late. Can't sleep. Restless Leg Syndrome...one of my worst enemies. You lay down to sleep and suddenly, a leg moves, just slightly. Caution. Be still. Maybe it's not what I think it is. And, then, both legs pull up tight and curl til they almost break!
Pain? Not really...but the muscles just scream to MOVE!! Legs pull up. Legs straighten out. Left ankles twists in a circle, move over, right ankle has to copy. The torture has started. It's relentless and it means GET UP AND MOVE AROUND.
Midnight. So, I'm dying to sleep, I took my medication for this SYNDROME...why am I being tortured? Not sure. Guess I'll have another round of chatter with Dr. Manion on September 5th.
We'll talk, he'll question. I'll answer, he'll lead. I'll follow and we'll end up on the same page, same chapter...continue taking the meds and let me know if there is any improvement by the end of the week. OK...and, in the meantime, I'll fill the late hours with rhetoric and gab.
Let's see, RLS, diabetes type II, obesity, blood pressure meds, sleep apnea...and, the winner is??? Hey, it's not me tonight! In the meantime, a knight rode in on a neat white stallion...his name is Dr. Rogers.
"We're going to get the Lap Band procedure and take this weight off!" Finally, someone has paid attention. HALT. Aetna says, "although you've dealt with this weight all of your life, we want you to do another six months of dieting under physician's supervision." ARE THEY NUTS?
Get me all excited over a procedure, new chance with a skinny body and tell me to DIET SOME MORE! Right. How confusing can this all be? Very! Words to describe it all, let's see...frustrated, ticked off, put out, confused, excited, anxious and more.
Go. Stop. Well, hesitate for a few months. See the Psychologist. Take a test of a million questions to see if you need a straight jacket, or a Lap Band. I passed. No straight jacket, just a Band. See a nutritionist. Get all the names of Whey and Protein and liquids and powders and oh, yes...vitamins, vitamins and more vitamins.
Begin to take your string of a thousand vitamins a day. Two of them are chocolate flavored, two of them are white with citrus, one of them is B12 in liquid form (arrrghh!) and one is, you guessed it A FLINTSTONE VITAMIN!! Yeeeehaawwww!
Now, diet, but think about January. Lap Band, a one ounce pouch...no more meals as you've eaten for 59 years of life. Diet. Are they nuts? I have to pause and surrender to a few 'last tastes' and restaurants!
What a roller coaster and I haven't even pulled out of the shed yet! Yipes!! I'm learning....patience, humility, calmness and more. But, on any given late hour evening I can feel the frustration oozing slowly from my pores. Oh well, wipe it off and go another round at daylight!
Now you know what it's like to jump into this scenario. And, at the end of each day, I finally go to the bed and wonder...to move or not to move? That is the question!
Gotta love those nights when you lay your head on the pillow and remember nothing...until the early morning when your eyes pop open. Then, it all starts again!